Wow, it’s been 100 days since I’ve started my instagram 100 days journey.
A few things have happened since the start of my project.
realized confirmed that there is always one moment in each and every day that you can stop and enjoy. It can be as small as the look my dog gives me when I come home after a long day; the fresh peach I eat for a snack, the way the sunlight comes through the window and lights up the room; or the sight of my husband. Over the last 100 days, I have had (and will always have) some terrible ones, but finding the light in the madness is so important and uplifting. In this world where many live with very little, and where I have been blessed with plenty, it really is the moments each day that fill my heart with happiness.
2. I’ve managed to post a photo to instagram every day – no misses! There was a close call as I was posting at 11:30 PM one night recently and instagram would not load… but I got it to post just in time. It was a fun challenge to find an interesting, different moment each day, and have this goal of 100 to work towards. And while I really enjoyed finding and sharing (and capturing and editing) that moment every day, I’m not going to continue to post as much. I will, however, make sure to find my happy moment (or moments) on my own, every day. It’s become sort of a habit anyway.
3. We have purchased, and moved into, our first home! What started in February of this year as a full fledged house hunting mission ended with the perfect home for us. There were some ups and downs along the way. Three rejected offers, countless miles in our cars and fighting our way through packed open houses was a much tougher journey than we anticipated. There were definitely some fun moments, but house hunting (and purchasing) is a long, confusing, stressful process. I’m glad we’re done. This is the third (and hopefully last for a while) time that Jake and I have moved together. He does most of the packing; I do most of the unpacking. It works out perfect. 🙂 We love our home and Bear loves the backyard. It’s been about 2 weeks here and we are almost all settled in. Photos to come.
4. And in maybe the biggest news… Jake and I have decided to share our world with someone else. And while Bear has been our baby for almost 3 years, we decided we needed a human baby to tend to as well. So arriving mid-December 2014 will be baby Feldman! We are so excited to show this little one the world.
My happy moment today stems from the worst moment of my life. But I was thinking this morning, how much has changed in my life since that day 10 years ago, and how much of my life is because of that moment.
When I arrived in Burkina Faso in the spring of 2004, I was a bright eyed, well traveled, optimistic 23 year old. I was ready to tackle my teaching assignment. Sure, I was scared, but I was mostly excited for the next 2 years in Africa. I remember the red dirt, the small huts, the friendly locals, and the extremely warm and talented other volunteers I was sent with.
The call home to update my parents on my safe arrival and my happy anticipation turned into a phone call with the news of my brother’s car accident. I won’t forget that moment. I won’t forget walking back through the red dirt roads to pack my bags. And I won’t forget the phone call from the Paris airport on the way home, telling me of my younger brother’s death.
His death is the reason I went to medical school. It is the reason I went to residency training. And therefore, it is the reason I was able to meet my husband. Other than time, it’s the only way to get through something terrible. To find the happy moments, the good outcomes of such a tragic event.
So thank you, Philip. Thank you, through your heartbreaking, mysterious way of introducing me to the love of my life. I am, in most ways, a more complete person today than I was 10 years ago. But there will always be that one part of my heart that’s missing. I just chose to fill it with happy memories of you.
James Charles Philip Perry 1/21/1983 – 4/10/2004
I’ve always considered myself an optimist. I’m a “glass half full” type of woman. I can definitely thank my mother for that. She may be the most optimistic, encouraging person I know. I, by far, have more happy days than I do sad. I have a wonderful life, a blossoming career, a sweetheart of a husband, a loving family. But let’s face it: everyone has their down days. And over the past 10 years, during medical school, residency training, and now my new life as an emergency physician, there have been some good – and some bad days. There are times when I’ve found myself a bit frustrated at humanity and with life in general at my job in the emergency department. Whether it be the frustration of knowing a patient will just not take and/or not be able to afford the pills I prescribe; seeing the patient with chronic pain who comes in multiple times a week requesting narcotics; trying to convince a consultant to see a patient; or witnessing death and debilitation on an almost daily basis. My job can be exhausting, frustrating, depressing, and exhilarating. And while I do, for the most part, enjoy my job, and feel fulfilled, I also feel like it may be the source of the majority of my unhappy moments.
I have two pretty monumental anniversaries coming up in April that I know will be tough days for me and my family, and I want to start this next month with all things happy. So when I stumbled across 100 happy days, I was intrigued. There is (and there has to be) at least one small moment, every day, which makes us smile. One feeling, one hug, one thing we see, or eat, or do, or smell. Anything. I thought it would be a fun project to document that moment everyday, as a way to remind myself that despite those rough days, there is always one (or more) reasons to feel uplifted, to feel content.
And so it begins. The 100 happy days project. I have decided to capture that moment everyday that makes my heart smile. I am posting these for myself, but I hope that you will enjoy as well. I’ll be posting on Instagram with the hashtags #100happydays and #jphappy. Come, be happy with me. Cheers!
Reading… Finished The Interestings. Overall, eh. It was well written, very character driven. I wouldn’t read it again, but I’m glad I did, and it was worth getting through it. But parts of it were a little slow, and I felt like the book just sort of ended. As if there could have been another chapter. Next up: trying to get the nerve to start this book – supposed to be a phenomenal read, but it’s a bit daunting to start this large of a non-fiction book. I’m usually a fiction only lover and needs to be relatively fast paced. But I’m going to try it because it comes so highly recommended.
Theme searching… My mom (who is one of about 2 people who read this, and hence, I should make her happy) told me she missed seeing the lemons on the top of my blog. So I decided to try to find a new theme to re-incorporate the lemons! Think I’ve found one I like. It’s insane how much free blog support there is out there. I find it really fun to change up the look and try to create a sleek aesthetic for the page. Blogging is still relatively new to me, even though my first post was (!gasp!) in December 2010! Wow.
Zillowing… Is that a word? It should be. It’s equally addicting as it is punishing. I find a new house in our budget, add it to my favorites, and receive an email the next day that a sale is pending on it. Anyone have an affordable 3+ bed, 2+ bath house in northern Virginia or southern Maryland they want to sell us???
This is about 4 months overdue – but better late than never.
Wanted to share just a few photos from the beautiful and incredibly fun wedding of Theresa and Will that we attended in October of 2013. The entire event took place at the Antrim 1844 – which is a wonderful old country mansion in the hillsides of Maryland. As the wedding party, we got to stay in the main house and it was so beautiful; like being in a movie. The beds were 4 poster with thick, soft mattresses, the ceilings were over 10 feet, the walls were covered with floral wallpaper, and all of the furniture was antique. The grounds were filled with flowers, beautiful fountains, and the greenest grass I’ve ever seen! It was a wonderful wedding, so much fun, and we were so glad to be a part of it.