30 and 32.

Well, I turn 32 today, and while I’m the happiest I’ve ever been, I am a little sad as well.  My brother Philip would have turned 30 today.  A big birthday.  I have such sweet memories of my mom making two birthday cakes, my parents getting two sets of presents, and of all the birthday fun we always had on January 21st.  While I was weeks late, Philip was early, and somehow, we both emerged on the same day – 2 years apart.  My parents always made sure to make us each feel special on our shared day.  We would even get to have two separate birthday parties!

I’m so lucky.  I have amazing parents, an awesome sister, an amazing brother-in-law and niece.  I have my love, Jake.  I have incredible friends and family all over the world.  I have a brother who isn’t here anymore, but who holds a special place in my heart always, but especially on this day.

I’ve never shared feelings like this so publicly, but because it’s our birthday, because I feel so lucky, and so loved, I wanted to share.